The rest of the internet is busy writing deep and meaningful new year’s posts. I don’t think I could be bothered, but I’m stuck at uni waiting for the printer to ponder a very large file, and I’ve run out of stuff to do…
So, here’s what I’ve been thinking about 2009:
Honours. This is the big one. I have many worries about how this will go – I’ll have to spend the whole year talking to people, often people I wouldn’t ordinarily talk to. I’ll have to get them to tell me stuff, I’ll have to ask them questions that will get useful answers. I’ll have to make some sort of sense of what they tell me, and then (*whimper*) write it up into something that a) makes sense, b) is good, c) doesn’t miss any important methodological and theoretical stuff, and d) gets proof-read by several people. I don’t like people reading what I write… And how will I ever get a high distinction for the theory unit? The thing I’m most worried about though is keeping myself unstressed and relatively sane. Because if I can do that, the rest follows without too much trouble. If I can’t, it will all be very very difficult. And honours will be hard enough without fighting myself the whole way.
So, how to avoid the badness? Here’s what I’ve gotta do:
- Get exercise – I’ll be riding my bike to uni most days, so this is ok. To ensure that I don’t get lazy, I will once more not be buying a parking permit.
- Eat well – this is more tricky, but I just have to make sure I stick to The Rules: > 2 colours of veggies in every dinner, volume of veggies should exceed both volume of meat and volume of carbs, no afternoon-snacking on chocolate except in the last 3 weeks of semester or the week before a big assignment is due, and chocolate snack-runs must be preceded by a fruit or veggie snack-run.
- Don’t run out of money – this is tricky too, coz I don’t want to do a lot of work. I’ll have to go off to Centrelink next week, fun fun, so they can start giving me money. And I need to find a way to confine paid work to either one full day or two afternoons a week. This will have to wait for my timetable. On the other side, I need to get out of the habit of buying stuff. My main problem here is lunches. I might have to add “and bought lunches” to the above chocolate-snack rule. Also: no new clothes whatsoever, no buying stuff off the internet, and no new sewing projects with
expensivefabric requirements – use the stash.
- Don’t go crazy – two things here, apart from the above: 1) keep taking the happy drugs – this is not the time to try to come off them, and 2) keep an eye out for trouble – make a regular time to check up with myself about how I am emotionally, so that I can catch stuff before it gets out of hand.
- Don’t let my relationship slip – because, among other bad things, that would definitely initiate Stress Mode(tm), and we don’t want that.
- Give it the best you’ve got – the trick here is that that’s my “official” aim for honours. I’m not officially aiming for first class, or for 80%s throughout, coz that will make me freeze up in fear of failure, and stress and procrastinate, and I won’t be able to do what I’m really capable of. I’ve just gotta give it all I’ve got, and if I’m good enough, I’ll get first class, and if I’m not, well, at least I gave it a good go instead of sabotaging myself with my issues.
So, that’s my plan.